One tiny step…

Posted in Main, Mind Wanderings, Sharing the Handmade Love at 1:53 pm by carrie

Trying to push myself to do more art. It’s tough! Nathan got me some awesome watercolor colored pencils for my b-day so having this new medium/tool has been helpful.

I added another dimension by gluing on acetate cut-outs and lime-green flowers. Eventually, I would like this sort of work to evolve to dense, covered mixed media… with found materials and bits of vintage papers.

By searching for new patterns and color palettes for inspiration, I’ve become somewhat interested in vintage fabric and wallpaper. I’d like to start a little collection… I already have a massive stack of vintage hankies that I’ve been collecting, but what box are they in? eek! I have to admit, I’m not completely unpacked and I’m so far from organized. But, I’ve been working on a web design project… so I have an excuse to not be organized :)

It’s taken a few months, but I’m really starting to feel the loss of not having the shop. It had a built-in passion… it came with the desire to create. Each day I would open the door and be inspired. It’s so much harder to feel the need to create here. I had tangible items, an audience and instant gratification… and input. I miss it so much.

I was joking with my friends that I need to have a wake for all the items that I left behind, and that I’m mourning the loss of. An old radio cabinet, my very old couches, a mop, sheets of plexiglass that I really could have made into something cool here… a laundry list of little pieces of the store… five years to put together and about 6 weeks to dismantle. *sigh* Well, I’m hoping, at the very least, to take these emotions and put it into my art… celebrate the joy that the shop created… and some of the frustration, too. Perhaps I can bind it all together and make a book about having your own little store… the mundane business paper pushing, the overwhelming responsibility, the joy, how rewarding it was and also all of the many annoyances. Towards the end, so many things seemed unfair… the joy was slipping away… and having to deal with outside forces… it seeped into my little magical fairy world and destroyed it. Next time… if there is a next time, I will make sure that my business is protected from the negative, that way it will thrive and grow, the way I intended it to. (And I may hire a bulldog to run the store while I get to just create… I’ll be the first to admit that I’m uber-hyper-sensitive to anything negative… or anyone who is negative, for that matter).

And here is a work in progress… I think I’m going to journal on it a bit… let vab know how much I miss her :) I think once I find closure on the closure, I’ll be able to get the website up and running again… I can once again share my passion for art and pretty little things :)


  1. Graycee said,

    June 25, 2008 at 5:09 pm

    Definitely allow yourself to mourn the loss of VAB . . . it’s necessary to do that so that you can eventually move forward.

    And, BTW, I love the pink and blue sketch just above . . . any surprise since those are my favorite colors!

  2. Holly said,

    June 27, 2008 at 9:29 am

    Your art is just beautiful!!! I love the glitter on it.. although I like anything with glitter ;) xo!

  3. Allison Cummings said,

    June 27, 2008 at 8:32 pm

    omg…i love the art…make me one?

  4. natalie said,

    June 30, 2008 at 11:50 am

    I love your art!! The colors are beautiful, an whimsical! I have enjoyed reading about your shop, and had hoped to visit it sometime. But alas, you have moved on, and now I will enjoy reading about your new adventures! I can totally imagine, how you would have to mourn the store, since so much of your heart an soul would have been poured into it 24/7. But, I so get what you mean about negative stuff. And criticism is hard to take…..like the bumper sticker says…Mean people suck!
    Recently I sold some of my pieces to a local store to sell. I thought that I would be so excited, but when I picked up the check, it was kind of a let down. I was so much more thrilled, when I sold my pieces directly to the customer who was going to enjoy them. So I would guess that is how you would have felt everyday with your customers…making them happy, with the “perfect” thing or gift for someone.
    So I wish you the best of luck, in any new endeavor the comes your way!!

  5. Kristina Lynch said,

    June 30, 2008 at 10:31 pm

    Ahhh…I too have been feeling very melancholy about VRB and my friend on the left coast. Please continue to put up your inspirations so that I can gleen some happiness from them “) Just yesterday I told Joe that I really would love to have a little shop someday…my favorite part is the hunt for the bargain to make beautiful and re-sell! It’s just not the same trying to do it from home…Maybe you should consider that idea of hosting shows so you’d have some temporary outlets to create, sell and encourage others on the same path. Just watch out for the crazzies!!! Maybe you should have a seperate person jury the stuff so you don’t feel guilty saying NO “) Hehee!
    Beautiful work by the way! Gorgeous colors! By the way did you know California is on fire? So sad…parts of Big Sir and Monterey County and lots of places inland “(

    xoxo & miss ya too!

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